Facing Reality

So Thursday night, my sister called and told me that my aunt and cousin had taken my grandmother to the ER because she thought she had a stroke...I was completely numb trying to convince myself that she was alright.  I mean this was the same woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in high school, but has been clear since her mastectomy, she didn't even have to go through Chemo.  This was the same woman who had a heart attack and didn't even know it, so no way was I going to lose her now!!!  My grandmother has always been the rock of the family, she's the one to visit you in the hospital, not the other way around.  I recalled when I was 16 years old and in a near fatal car crash, it was her strength that got me by day after day.  I began to think of all the things she had done for me, and I began to cry.  There are no words to explain how much she has been a blessing to all those around her.  She is always willing to give of herself unselfishly without a second thought.  What would I do without her??  I took some Tylenol pm, because I knew that was the only way I'd be able to sleep.  Friday morning, I called my mom, aunt and sister and told them I planned on going to see her.  When I walked into her room, I had no idea what to expect...would she be paralyzed on one side, both sides. or perhaps not even be alert enough to realize I was there.  I walked in her room and she was sleeping, I said "Grandma" and she woke up... If I had any doubt about the goodness of God, it all went out the window at that point.  There was no way you could tell me this woman suffered a stroke less than 24 hours ago... I mean I know there are different degrees of stroke and she did suffer a mild one, but are you serious!!!!  I was very happy and relieved and most of all thankful that God was on her side.  For about an hour we laughed and joked and talked and that was one of the best hours of my life...I love my grandmother and even though we don't always see eye to eye on everything, I couldn't imagine not having her in my life. I have never lost anyone close to me, and I thank God that I still haven't.  As if that wasn't enough, she was discharged on Mother's Day and I have to admit that to date, this was my best Mother's Day ever!!!